36. Orange line

Dull sky,

Black clouds

And a thin orange sheet

Lying between the bunch of blacks

Tall buildings all lit up

Chimneys throwing smoke

River is covered with layer of fallen snow

And roads are bustling with automobiles

Standing on the eleventh floor

And peeping out of my window

Among the mixture of various things

Best sight to my eyes is that thin line

That thin orange patch between those black clouds 

A strange calmness

Some consolation kind

And a peace giving assertion

Is what I can feel right now..

But while I am writing this,

My peace is being stolen

Those black clouds are hovering over the orange spread

It's turning black all around

Gradually, entire sky would turn black

I don't like that

I don't like such gloominess

It makes me feel lonely and sad

I wish,

I could steal that bright piece of sky and keep with me..

I am hopeful,

Hopeful for a sunny day...

If not tomorrow,

Some days later...

Though I love snow,

But it'll be more lively to welcome the summers again

To see those beautiful flowers

And bright sky..

35. That sadness is not for you

And I still wonder
And I still search
That one reason why we ever met..

I consider, I believe
And I thank that we met
But then why,
Why, many a times
I am left wandering
In tangles of thoughts
And dreams we shared
Why am I left so lonely
Only to see your sad and silent face
To observe and feel the distance
When although you sit right beside me
Why am I thrown into solving the puzzle
Of whether am I the cause of your wrath
Have I troubled your peace once again
Are you hurt through my words I didn't utter
Did I fail to meet your expectations in bond

I suffer
I suffer to see you suffer
I suffer to see those blank glares
It hurts to feel the void you create
It pains to see that smile sans curve

I try to approach
I try to resolve
But I fail my love
Because you don't let me win
Because you don't let me in
I stand at the crossroads
Of all the plausible chaos
That you make me feel I might have done

And once again I give up
One more time I am left bundled up

But my heart
The hapless chap
And the most stubborn one
Doesn't stop meandering
In whimsies of unison with you
It doesn't agree that it have been shelved

And I
What do I do,
No one around me,
With thoughts all about you
And mind on autopilot
I tremble while holding the glass of water
I shudder while hanging the towel on hook
I jolt when turning off the gas knob
I shake with a hope to see you on phone screen
And I fall down piece by piece
In distress and helplessness
And I cry inconsolably
I cry loud, very loud
Like an abandoned child
Like a hungry beggar
Like a grieving whole

My eyes give way to river
And my face burns to red
And though My heart snivels
It does not give up on you

I ask why?
And I get to hear this
Which I always knew
And I still do believe
That with every beat my heart ticks
I fall in love with you once more
However hard I try to teach
Whatever way I choose to say
My heart doesn't believe in this
That you can ever- ever go away
You are in me
I see you in mirror everytime I see myself
I hear your voice whenever I close my eyes
I never feel you are gone
I never think you can go
I don't know my love
If it is right or wrong
But I am not able to forget you whatever I do

I do not want you to come to me
I do not want you to give me anything
I do not wish you should give up on your ways
I do not hope you would ever love me my ways
I simply don't want you to do anything that I want but you don't
What all I want is...you to be happy

Don't ever remain gloomy
Don't ever stay sad
Life may not be at times at its best
But it'll always yet be good
Keep smiling my love
It gives me the reason to smile all the more
You don't want to see me
You please don't...
But never give up on spreading that cheer
My love for you will always be the same
Selfless!!!