47. Once more

I am a free bird

Let me be

Don’t tie me in a bond

I had been a loner

And so would I be

Don’t make me fond

Fond of you

Your talks

Your laughter

Your eyes

Fond of smirks

Your sneers

Your kisses

Your espies

Don’t make me believe, in life that is in dreams

Stay away from me, at a distance more than safe

I may not say to you, ever in times that would come

Even I get ecstatic, by the pricks of the crave

Where does has fallen from?

These droplets of frozen times

You are melting them one by one

Each surpassing other for prime

I want to become a statue, with breathing intact

Time immobile and you un-moving by my side

Look into my eyes, whisper softly in my ears

Hold me in your arms, hug me so much tight

Oh no no no no no, don’t touch me even a bit

How could I say thus, I just don’t want it!!

Oh look, what I am saying, under your influence

I don’t want you, yet I want you so much more....once more!!

Oh please save me, from falling in love with you

Don’t you make abode in my lonely deepest core....once more,once more!!

43. Your smile, O darling pie!!

Tossed into my life so inadvertently,

But it turned out to be so magnificently beautiful

Your influx with all that love

Oh dearest heart, can I ever be enough thankful

I could hardly comprehend with the flow of upshots

And see, here now I am

All together different human in being

Love of my life, am so much more than grateful

Nothing that I want

And I don’t have

Nothing that I wished

And you didn’t give

Nothing more than this

Can give me that bliss

Sweet apple of my eye

Your smile O darling pie !!

Keep Smiling !! :)

35. That sadness is not for you

And I still wonder
And I still search
That one reason why we ever met..

I consider, I believe
And I thank that we met
But then why,
Why, many a times
I am left wandering
In tangles of thoughts
And dreams we shared
Why am I left so lonely
Only to see your sad and silent face
To observe and feel the distance
When although you sit right beside me
Why am I thrown into solving the puzzle
Of whether am I the cause of your wrath
Have I troubled your peace once again
Are you hurt through my words I didn't utter
Did I fail to meet your expectations in bond

I suffer
I suffer to see you suffer
I suffer to see those blank glares
It hurts to feel the void you create
It pains to see that smile sans curve

I try to approach
I try to resolve
But I fail my love
Because you don't let me win
Because you don't let me in
I stand at the crossroads
Of all the plausible chaos
That you make me feel I might have done

And once again I give up
One more time I am left bundled up

But my heart
The hapless chap
And the most stubborn one
Doesn't stop meandering
In whimsies of unison with you
It doesn't agree that it have been shelved

And I
What do I do,
No one around me,
With thoughts all about you
And mind on autopilot
I tremble while holding the glass of water
I shudder while hanging the towel on hook
I jolt when turning off the gas knob
I shake with a hope to see you on phone screen
And I fall down piece by piece
In distress and helplessness
And I cry inconsolably
I cry loud, very loud
Like an abandoned child
Like a hungry beggar
Like a grieving whole

My eyes give way to river
And my face burns to red
And though My heart snivels
It does not give up on you

I ask why?
And I get to hear this
Which I always knew
And I still do believe
That with every beat my heart ticks
I fall in love with you once more
However hard I try to teach
Whatever way I choose to say
My heart doesn't believe in this
That you can ever- ever go away
You are in me
I see you in mirror everytime I see myself
I hear your voice whenever I close my eyes
I never feel you are gone
I never think you can go
I don't know my love
If it is right or wrong
But I am not able to forget you whatever I do

I do not want you to come to me
I do not want you to give me anything
I do not wish you should give up on your ways
I do not hope you would ever love me my ways
I simply don't want you to do anything that I want but you don't
What all I want is...you to be happy

Don't ever remain gloomy
Don't ever stay sad
Life may not be at times at its best
But it'll always yet be good
Keep smiling my love
It gives me the reason to smile all the more
You don't want to see me
You please don't...
But never give up on spreading that cheer
My love for you will always be the same
Selfless!!!

34. When

When I don't breathe anymore
When they announce me dead
When my soul flees the clan

I will be free
I will come to see
If you are still my man

29. My comrade

My comrade

Whatever happened to the alleyway,

Whatever happened to the purpose

You see, I can still visualize

The horizons you painted

The rainbows you stretched

You chose to proceed

I chose to recede

Though pickings were varied

We walked same way

Do you feel?

I do,

Though in converse bearings

We are parallel in path

It’s just that you never

Turn your eyes on me

And I never let

My eyes off you

But even in the beatings

I can hear you.

I had this bizarre night

Where I dreamed when wide awake

Saw you going lifeless

Obsolete in very make

I didn’t let eyes sleep

And brought you in my mind

Though you again acted insensitive

But yet I found you kind

You know something darling

I am quite mystified

The way you are formulating

Your advent and your hide

Let things be that they are

Let time act master thespian

You hold that hat called sense of self

I will wrap my scarf of oblivion

And wander in the land of sand

Stroking with the sticks of recall

Toiling shades of days bygone

Exploring ‘YOU’ after all !

27. Relight

I’ll traverse through your world

I’ll occur at twilight

Stay tuned to adapt the spark

I’ll be the cause of your relight

25. I am missing you

Pleasing music

I feel serene

And I am missing you

My eyes closed

Ear phone plugged in

And I am missing you

Rhythm filling up

My heart with love

And I am missing you

Eyes teary yet happy

Lips dry yet content

And I am missing you

I have wondered often

Wondering it now again

And I am missing you

Do I know you?

Or you are still a stranger

Oh..i am missing you

Emotion rush in blood

Flesh being but mean

And I am missing you

Yes, you are my sweetheart

Yes, you are so special

Darling, I am missing you

I may not see you again

I better not see you again

But I am missing you!!

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20. I hope you will walk by side

Not in a rush or frenzy

Neither am I sodden in tears

I am merely contemplating

What if?

What if not?

I know, my sweetheart,

You hate scrutiny

But,

This moment is so irresolute

That even though, in heart of my heart

I know what and why and how,

Yet, I doubt

I disbelieve in present-day

I am skeptical about tomorrow

I am lingering to the past

And scraping old sorrows

I am standing on the bridge

Unsure of either path

Holding onto the tenuous guardrail

If I fall, there’s no lath

Mornings bring some hope

Nights take them back

All the miles I walk

I reach the same old rack

Your smile steals my pain away

Your hug gives me home there

Your talks make me feel alive

Your presence makes it all fair

Embracing the feeble dream

I keep on feet, with eyes shut

I hope you will walk by side

And don’t let me fall in rut

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From Her to Him

17. You never got to lose

You chose to forget
I never got to choose
I lived at evading end
You never got to lose

Lurking on false hope
I am fighting with the sun
Moon comes to defend
Begging me for truce

Are you there, still there
Or have you moved again
To hunt hide away from me
Weaving yet some ruse

My love, sweetest love
Don't have to do all this
You may choose to call me dead
But don't count me to be noose
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13. Pour me in salt

Pour me in salt
Let my bones dissolve
Make me paper
Throw it in the air
Let me drift
With ease and flair
Let then birds
Come and pierce
My fragile body
With their shears
A cry may be heard
No blood though
More satiated
My soul may flow
The tiny particles
Let them get away
Mix in the air
And find their way
To reach your breath
And vein, blood through
Thump in your heart
And last in you
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From Her to Him