27. Relight

I’ll traverse through your world

I’ll occur at twilight

Stay tuned to adapt the spark

I’ll be the cause of your relight

24. I want you back

I want you back, my dear ‘Me’

I want you back to be with me

I miss being normal

I miss being effortless

Pandemonium in my mind

Uproar in the heart

I lost the concord within

I adrift touch with harmony

Something clamors deep inside

Screeching, screaming, wanting to be heard

And there is colossal calm as well

Conflicting with every single thought

Tears differ and behave hostile

The weary eyes would like to sleep

Face isn’t amiable so more

Talks are nevertheless, useless

I am blabbering, seething self in rage

Badly befuddled with the events unfolded

Deep breathe………no..doesn’t work

Reading quotes….no..doesn’t work

Walk by the river…less helpful

Talking to the sky…less caring

No….I won’t ask this again… “what do I do”

Perhaps, I always knew

For sure, I am not going to rue

Because I know, it has everything to do.....

With me, my spirit, my temperament, my beliefs

My nature and my tendencies of being emotional

To be honest and brutally honest,

Most miseries are self invited by me

Rather, self created by me

The dilemmas and the diffidence does the harm

It’s unfair to blame anyone for how I feel

I feel anyway because I choose to feel that way

Let me be truthful to my own self

And agree to disagree with ,

Unjustifiable demands that I make

Groundless worries that I create

Useless contemplation that I take

And all the unwanted pains that I rake………

I deserve to be happy

As every other individual does

Including those who are connected with me in a way or other

And whom, sometimes I do not give the worthy due………

Few steps,

Yes,

Few steps towards creating the cordial accord

Between me and myself

Myself and those lovely souls

Who happened to meet me in the discourse of life

And gave me love and support in their own ways

Its time,

I find out myself

Bring back home

And send out in return

Gratitude, Love and Peace!!

Dear ME,

Please come back!

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From Me to Myself

22. Let love be the reason

Behind the curious freckles
And beside the anxious look
There still is left some faith
There still is left some hope
At the crack of dawn
Will heave the relief
With a smile may be
Presenting self a gift
Overcoming the concerns
And learning to breathe again
That fresh air of trust and love
And exhaling all that pain
Reckoning the joy and gratitude
Towards being a lesser inferior
Being loved is not always being heard
Its also letting go without any fear
Grating the heart for no faults of it
Isn't a kind thing, brutal to yourself
This life for sure, will not come back again
Let love be the only reason for your dwell
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Inane

20. I hope you will walk by side

Not in a rush or frenzy

Neither am I sodden in tears

I am merely contemplating

What if?

What if not?

I know, my sweetheart,

You hate scrutiny

But,

This moment is so irresolute

That even though, in heart of my heart

I know what and why and how,

Yet, I doubt

I disbelieve in present-day

I am skeptical about tomorrow

I am lingering to the past

And scraping old sorrows

I am standing on the bridge

Unsure of either path

Holding onto the tenuous guardrail

If I fall, there’s no lath

Mornings bring some hope

Nights take them back

All the miles I walk

I reach the same old rack

Your smile steals my pain away

Your hug gives me home there

Your talks make me feel alive

Your presence makes it all fair

Embracing the feeble dream

I keep on feet, with eyes shut

I hope you will walk by side

And don’t let me fall in rut

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From Her to Him

18. In Moscow

Real feel showing degree three

Moscow is at smoggy spree

Tall buildings, getting blurred

Orange leaves, autumn spurred

Wispy drizzle on hide and seek

Romance gushing – every creek

Flowers blooming, ground and vale

Kissing couples on every trail

People flaunting, swanky sheaths

Dressed to kill, from toe to wreaths

Nature, at best, being rhetoric

All in all, it is turning quixotic

Top it all, ummhhm..brewing coffee glow!!

Now, I'm waiting, for the show of snow!!

…….In Moscow……

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From Me to Moscow

15. Disquiet Heart

It’s not talking,

Yet, its beat can be heard distinctly!

My heart,

Is again restless!

Stuck to its roots and

Yet it is acting nomadic!

Pulsating high,

It may explode,

With a hope,

Yet it feels ineffectual!

My heart,

Wants to hear you,

See you one more time,

Yet it doesn’t, want to do either!

Holding on to words,

Want to get immersed,

In your love once again,

Yet it remains so irresolute!

My heart,

Yearn to laugh with you,

Lay down in your cuddle,

Yet strives to stay, far and wide!

Covets the engaging snug,

Not perfunctory, but soul kiss,

Desire to own you up,

Yet doesn’t, want you at all!

It’s not talking,

Yet it words can be perceived!

My heart,

Behaving belligerent,

Is again peevish.

And is everything but peaceful,

It is impatient!

It is disquiet!

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From Her to Him

14. I am lost

I lost myself in the transit afar
Where do I go and register my claim?
It is undesirable and so not like me
How can I feel both, joy and pain!
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To myself